The Pink Bench
James Lucas James Lucas

The Pink Bench

Around 5pm I watched the light turn the landscape around the bench yellow, then orange, then red, and then pink. I imagined what’d it be like to sit next to someone and watch the colors saturate the horizon. I pictured romance on the pink bench.

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A Loose Grip On Life
James Lucas James Lucas

A Loose Grip On Life

I wondered how to escape the pain. I could be one of the 50,000 people who kill themselves annually, 70% of which are white men. I could be a statistic. With nowhere to stay except my van, I felt homeless, unemployed, and worthless. The future seemed too daunting, too overwhelming.

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Catharsis
James Lucas James Lucas

Catharsis

When my fingers and toes warm, I begin free-soloing the North Overhang. Just below the 5.9 crux, I stop to breathe and chalk. This time if I fall, I want to die -- I cannot deal with falling again.

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The Hipster Handbook
James Lucas James Lucas

The Hipster Handbook

The Hipster Handbook, the little blue Bible I kept on my truck’s dashboard, pegged us as “deck”: hipster lingo for cool. We followed its words religiously, shunning and reducing to kitsch anything held dear by the mainstream tourists, thru-hikers, and regular rock climbers.

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Animal World
James Lucas James Lucas

Animal World

Why am I bringing an animal to the crag? I asked myself. What’s the point? While Wesley enjoyed being outside, the impact he had on myself, other climbers, and the boulders created serious concerns.

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Panic at the Disco
James Lucas James Lucas

Panic at the Disco

One sport climber lugged a 20-pound car battery half an hour up the steep trail to plug in his portable vaporizer and fuel his use of hippie lettuce. Other climbers wore i-Pods, their favorite curry-stained t-shirt, and their lucky pair of underwear. They did anything to bring themselves luck, an edge on their project.

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Saturn’s Last Orbit
James Lucas James Lucas

Saturn’s Last Orbit

In April, I drove my Saturn into the Valley. My car rattled with character. The driver doors only opened from the outside. A Berkeley hood rat keyed the door lock a few years ago making the vehicle accessible with a pair of scissors. The back smelled of the over 1,000 nights I slept inside of it.

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Cosmic Debris
James Lucas James Lucas

Cosmic Debris

If the .4 umbrella blew, I would break my feet on the ledge below. My body fought against my memory of weaker beta. I cranked my fingers as hard as I could, smeared my feet on the overhanging wall, and thrutched to a finger lock.

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Pallbearers
James Lucas James Lucas

Pallbearers

The Zion search for a Yosemite legend.

Anna Meika, Stanley’s seven-and-a-half months pregnant wife, sounded the alarm. She hacked his email account and found a note from the BBC crew wondering where he was: He hadn’t returned his rental car, he’d never shown up for his nine-day BBC rigging job, and he hadn’t been heard from in 10 days. The search began.

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